7Months and Counting

Ello my blog.

I’ve been sick recently and yea. Last week took 2 days mc cos of my swollen eyes- eyelids infection btw.

Yesterday felt sick. Took another half day leave to see the doctor.

My temperature was at a soaring high at 38.9 degree celsius.

Can’t imagine cos even when im at the bus stop, i felt so cold despite the hot weather.

I thank God that though right now He didn’t give me a companion when Im sick but He is with me.

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I love Jesus’ company. It has been long since I last feel this way.

love it when I don’t need any human care and concern but only God’s

God is love )

Doctor gave me mc for today and Im going have my corporate event tomorrow and here I am at home access the company emails and stuffs like that.

I was no longer into any passion for this job. This I know.

I told myself to endure for how many how many more months in order for me to reach 1 year in this company.

But I couldn’t. Lots of things happened, passion faded. No more motivation into this job.

Mummy told me she understand this feeling. If it’s not to earn a living, a stable job, we won’t have to hold on to it.

I’ve been asking myself how come I kept falling sick, spiritually I think its still alright. Its the physically and emotionally part.

I’m worn off. For this job at least. But if you tell me to look for another, I would be afraid of the new challenges and stuffs cos at least for this job, I had my confirmation and stuffs. yeaaa. I miss those times I had passion for this job.

I miss the fun and passion when I first explored this job.

Full of surprises and excitements.

7months and counting… will I endure the 5more months of sianess in this job?

We will know it in due time…

Learnt that life is a growing process.

Like spiritual life, it goes up and down. but you must first be enchored by The Rock- Jesus.

Likewise, in life, we are guided by the Holy Spirit and as long as we hold on, focuses on Jesus, nothing can move us.

Instead all these trials and reflections and sufferings made us grow stronger as it serves as challenges to test of our faith.

So, I never stop believing, never stop trusting.

He with have risen and sitting at the right hand side of God now in heaven, is with me right now. At this moment.

As we seen through the weakness and struggles of humans, of the world, we will no longer be able to live alone.

But our heart desires and wants to know God and be with God.

Human desires and human companionship can no longer satisfy our heart’s desire but I don’t mean that we don’t need friends BUT we must understand that only God can satisfy and touch the deepest corner of our heart.

Even though I am really not sure of my current job or status, I will continue to pray and ask that God will see me through.

Its a tough one but I know that God won’t let me down. He will lift me up cos He’s my living Saviour.

My love

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